My cup runneth over, Thank You Shirley. You have the kindest heart of anyone I know and I am not at all surprised that you correspond with those serving in our Armed Forces. What a great idea! Please let me know how to go about doing the same and I would love to do it! Do you think there are any Soldiers out there that would be willing to read the noise and nonsense in my head? You made my day! xoxox
I totally freaked out watching a mouth wash commercial this morning. It said that brushing your teeth was not enough and then showed creepy, ghostlike, scary little men wreaking havoc and spreading germs in some poor guys mouth. I immediately started making a list of all the mouth wash I must run out and buy and then it hit me. Tequila is taking care of all the creepy little germs in my mouth. Cheers!
I love being a Mother truly I do but sometimes when I can not lock myself in the bathroom or run out of the house screaming I like to make a list in my head of all the things that are easier than being a Mom. And yes I do realize that I make a lot of lists. You would think I would be the most organized human on the planet but you would be wrong. I think making lists keeps me sane. But, I am meandering. Let’s just say last night was one of those trying Mom moments when you know you are being tested or at the very least you are being punked. So, my list making is in over drive this morning and here is my updated list of things that are easier to do than being a Mom.
1. Climbing Mt. Everest. Hey, at least I would have some alone time.
2. Watching the scariest movie in the world. I am a Mom. You can not scare me.
3.Falling from a plane with a malfunctioning parachute. I am always free-falling. I do not like the Tom Petty song.
4. Shopping at Market Basket on the first of the month which just happens to fall on a Sunday. Been there and Done that.
5.Riding the rapids without a paddle. Easy peasy, I have driven with The Thinker and Princess Pissy Pants.
6. Having Lunch Duty all by myself when Nacho’s Supreme is on the menu with oranges that need peeling for dessert. Add in Capri Sun juice pouches and I am in my own private Hell but still more enjoyable than being a Mom last night.
7. Putting on Spanx.
8. Going to the Gynecologist. Yup, I went there.
9. Trying on Bathing Suits sober.
10. The 30+ hours of labor plus an emergency C-Section.
I believe all of the above are things that are easier than being a Mother but I still would not trade a moment of being a Mom. Most especially The Thinker and Princess Pissy Pants Mom.
The Noise In My Head (and it is SCREAMING!).
How much do I love my friends? The answer would be so, so very much! I just wrote a post about how much I love letters and would some one please send me one. I received a letter today! My friend, Debbie, sent me the sweetest letter. I love it! Debbie is my friend, neighbor and Mother of Tessa, the smartiest girl I know. Is it any wonder Tessa turned out as amazing as she did with a Mother that answers her friends wishes and whims with such love and humor? So, not only am I lucky enough to receive a letter but it will be kept in my letter box as a constant reminder of how much I value her friendship and her baby girl. Thank You Debbie. Love you. I got a letter!
Monday night I woke up at 3:00 am and could not figure out why. I quickly realized I was not breathing well because my CPAP machine was not working. After looking around a bit I figured out that we had lost power. Every house on the street was in total darkness. I was relieved because for a quick moment I thought I had forgotten to pay the bill or even worse that The Saint had finally reached his breaking point and decided to get rid of me. Last night I woke up again to the same exact scenario except this time we had not lost electricity. Nope, this time Jack, my cat, was sound asleep on the machines hose and cutting off my air supply. Accident?, well considering that Jack worships the Saint I don’t think so. I am sleeping with both eyes open tonight. (Is that possible?).
The Noise In My Head ( and it is oxygen deprived and humming the theme from”Mission Impossible”).
Do you know what I miss? I miss letters. I miss writing, sending, receiving and reading letters. I enjoy the convenience of texting and email but I love letters. I love the whole process of picking the stationary, putting thoughts on paper and hoping that the person I am sending it to realizes that I have put much more than just the sheet of paper into the envelope before sealing it. I love letters. Somebody please send me one and I promise to send one back.
My mind is racing right now which means The Noise In My Head is really loud. Writing usually helps to quiet it so here goes.
I was lucky enough to spend the weekend celebrating my Nephew, Jake and seeing friends I had not seen in a while. After I had the opportunity to visit with one friend I was thinking about how easy it was and what a shame that I had not seen him more often. I text him that thought and he replied that Life is moving too fast.
Fast Forward to that night and I am with my family and friends celebrating Jake being named one of 40 people under the age of 40 in Southeastern Connecticut making a difference in their communities. Needless to say I was bursting with pride and thinking about all the moments throughout his life where I have just been filled with wonder and love for this amazing boy. But wasn’t he just 8 years old yesterday dancing to Beauty in the Beast in my kitchen? It was an award-winning performance by the way. Life is moving too fast.
Today I had lunch with a friend I can pick up with like I just saw her a moment ago even when it has been months. Every time we get together we talk about how we need to see each other more often and just quick lunches are not enough. We also reminisce about how she got me drunk on my 21st Birthday and I threw up a perfectly intact frosting rose from my Birthday cake, Pretty. It just seems like something always keeps us apart. Work, Commitments, Distance but Life is moving too fast.
So, here I am thinking about all of this and my head hurts. I am so lucky to have all these people and moments in my life but what am I missing? I would hope that the people in my life would be the most important thing and that I would not lose sight of that. How many moments does a person get in their life to be with people they love and make them happy? How irresponsible of me to not recognize these moments and let the day-to-day get in the way of creating more of them. I know that there are responsibilities and commitments that have to be met on a daily basis but shouldn’t this too short life we have that is moving at warp speed be filled with people and moments we love? I think so. So, how can I make this happen? How can I stay in the moment and say yes more often and not put things off to another time when it might be easier or more convient? Because I am thinking Life is moving too fast and I want it to be filled with moments that will slow things down.
The Noise In My Head (and it is singing “Life in the Fast Lane”).