Yesterday was one of those days that I would have picked up the phone and called you. I know I called you all the time for every little thing. I loved sharing with you. I loved talking with you. I loved getting advice from you and most of all I loved how much better I felt after talking with you. Yesterday I was sucker punched. I was hurting. My very first thought was “Call Dad”. After the initial wave of sadness and then the next wave of anger washed over me realizing that I cold not call you, I sat back, closed my eyes and talked it out with you in my head. I could hear your voice and let it comfort me. I knew what advice you would have given. I knew what you would have said. I knew you would have made me see more clearly what in fact was bothering me. I am not saying that it was as good as picking up the phone and hearing your voice, but you taught me well. And I know without a doubt you would have made me laugh before I hung up. So, the universe can sucker punch away. I still have my Dad in my corner.
I also wanted to tell you that the Father’s Day crazy has begun. The commercials, Ads in the magazines. cards in the stores, it’s everywhere. They still make me catch my breath but I find myself smiling as well. I loved how you loved these holidays including your Birthday. Anything that was a celebration and most importantly celebrated you. I still have the last Father’s Day Card I bought you and never got to send. I bought 2 cards Father’s Day 2013 because I could not decide between the two. I bought one with the thought I would save the other for next year. I took it out last year, held it in hands and cried. I bet you are surprised that I remembered where I put it. I am too. Anyway, I will take it out and read it to you again this year. And even if I cry know that I will be smiling because I will be remembering how much you loved celebrating. And Cake. And Prizes. I wonder where I get it from?
I love you,
P.S. They are talking about how to survive a shark attack on The Today Show, How about I swim in a pool? How about that?
P.S. I also wanted to tell you that Georjan treated us to lunch at Costello’s on Saturday. That’s right, she paid. I am sorry you weren’t there to witness it but I enjoyed it for all of us!
AAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I broke the Cardinal Weight Watchers Rule. I have been indulging in the delicious Chatila’s Oat Bran Muffins every day for about 10 days. I am obsessed with them. If You do not know about Chatila’s you should. It is this amazing bakery in Salem, New Hampshire that specializes in Sugar Free Baked Goods. Before you start in with me on Sugar Free products being filled with other crap, Stop! I know! If you know anything about me you know I am not giving up my baked goods and Chatila’s has been my saving grace, Anyhow in my excitement of falling in love with the muffins I calculated the point value as 2. I kept thinking, as I shoved a muffin in my face, that this is too good to be true. Guess what, it was. The nutrition info is for 1/2 of a muffin. HELLO!!!!! What am I an amateur? I know to read the serving size. How did I miss this? Rookie mistake. I feel like I sabotaged myself. I am like the Lindsay Lohan character in Mean Girls that gave Rachel McAdams the diet bars that actually made her gain weight. I did this to myself. Pathetic. I need Tina fey to come to my house and give me a pep talk to make me feel better about myself. Bye Bye delicious Oat Bran Muffins. Hello Muffin Top. (Insert bad word here).